I didn’t even come close. I haven’t punched the numbers, but I am most certain this goal was much more suitable for 1 week other than 2. My grocery bill for this week alone was half of my two week goal. I am still so elated (yes) about other things I am managing, and overwhelmed by others.
We have had a whole Valentine’s Weekend, which has been nice.
I am pretty sure my dreams for a destination wedding were squashed into a bloody pulp today, but that’s OK. I am honeymooning in Hawaii, dammit. MARK MY WORDS!
Also, I AM SO OVERWHELMED BY SCHOOL LOANS RIGHT NOW. How did I let this happen? Why aren’t I earning enough to pay them off at the rate they want me to? This all makes me really sad, and even more motivated to find my next career move.
I have a big list of DUMB THINGS I GOTTA DO this week. Someone hit my car so I have to get it to an auto body shop. I also need to contact my school loan company and figure out a way to renegotiate my monthly payments.
My biggest frustration is life comes from restraints, mostly due to finances. A co-workers uncle says if money is all that’s holding you back, then you’ve got nothing stopping you.
I’d like to talk to that guy, because what does he mean, really? Should I just live in debt my whole life? I don’t think he means this. I think he is trying to inspire, but every time I try to think like a capitalist, I get really grossed out. I know there are parts of me which are just inherently capitalist (so reward motivated! I also really like to be “on time”).
I know that everything will be alright. I know this. I just am so scared right now, like I’m juggling and all the balls are about to come crashing down.
